I do not know what I may appear to the world, but to myself I seem to have been only like a boy playing on the seashore, and diverting myself in now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me.
So many times, people told me I can’t do this or can’t do that. My nature is that I don’t listen very well. I’m very determined, and I believe in myself. My parents brought me up that way. I don’t let anything stand in my way. Everyone has highs and lows that they have to learn from, but every morning I start off with a good head on my shoulders, saying to myself, ‘It’s going to be a good day!’.
I know that you are visiting my blog for the first time. So let me introduce myself.
Myself Md Danish Hanif; I have completed my graduation in the year 2016 in ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING (B.Tech) from Calcutta Institute Of Technology. I live in Kolkata, West Bengal, which is my birth place. I have not joined any company yet. My ultimate goal now is to crack ENGINEERING SERVICE EXAM(ESE). Some people are suggesting me that I should apply to any small technical company and not waste much time. But I better know what I am doing. I am determined to be cheerful and happy in whatever situation I may find myself. For I have learned that the greater part of our misery or unhappiness is determined not by our circumstance but by our disposition. Some days are just bad days, that’s all. You have to experience sadness to know happiness, and I remind myself that not every day is going to be a good day, that’s just the way it is!.
My life motto is ‘Do my best, so that I can’t blame myself for anything. Many times, the decisions we make affect and hurt your closest friends and family the most. I have a lot of regrets in that regard. But ALLAH has forgiven me, which I am very thankful for. It has enabled me to forgive myself and move forward one day at a time.
I felt ashamed for what I had done. I don’t have any excuses. I did what I did. I take full responsibility for myself and my actions. I wouldn’t pawn this off on anybody. I’m sorry it happened. And I hurt people. The biggest competition is myself. I am not looking to follow others or pull them down. I’m planning to test my own boundaries. I am not trying to give an image of a fairy tale, perfect, everything else, I am just being myself. The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change.
Sometimes we can’t express our feelings, we have to write it on in a piece of paper.That’s what i am doing now.
After the GATE exam I am totally daunt by my performance, Thinking what to do next.Trying to make plans, taking suggestions from friends and families.But after some day the response sheet came and I matched my answer with some of the top institute papers.Then I got to know that my performance was not so bad as I have assumed. I am scoring around 45 marks which was in my view is enough to get admission in Jadavpur University and even in some new IIT’s. Everything then becoming normal and I am again building my confidence to perform even better.
But wait……wait……wait….! Life is not so easy as I have assumed.It will be going to become even worse than before.Because when IIT Roorkey released the answer key, I have loose 4.66 marks.Now that’s a big margin.It will be going to increase my rank by almost 2000.
This news has decreased my efficiency by almost 87.5%.
What to do now?
How I am going to cope up with this situation?
Can I be able to prepare for BARC and ISRO?
Lets see what happens with me and hope for the best.
(End of part I)
So its almost one week since GATE 2018 is over.I know that many of the aspirants have successfully given the exam but maximum number of students have failed miserably in just attaining a qualifying marks.Actually its a year of hard work which is sucking the students for not doing well.Believe me I am also one of them.After a year of constant hard work the result is only 44 marks(appx) and I was totally demotivated/disappointed.
So what went wrong?
Am I not intelligent enough to crack this type of exam?
Or I have not worked as hard as required?
Or there is a problem in my study style?
Numerous type of questions.
In this time the best thing which you can do is that move forward and leave all those question to be answered in the future.Take a break and again start working for the next upcoming exams.I know that maximum number of students are going through financial crisis and they are thinking to change their track.But that’s not the solution to the problem.We have to believe in ourselves, choose the right path and move forward.May be one day, when you become successful through your hard efforts, you will be proud of yourself and in that day you will be the winner.
Everyone wants to get respect from others.They want to be liked by someone very special.But they forget that to gather that sort of respect first we have to respect our-self.Always be in the state of self-respecting attitude. Be yourself and be always happy in front of others.Listen to everyone but do what you like. Never make a comfort zone because it destroys one’s creativity.
Last but not the least do whatever you want to do but be upgraded and wake up early in the morning, avoid negativity.